Mapping the Mayhem

Mapping the Mayhem Curator of Chaos.

Maestro of Mayhem.

49% Logical Genius / 49% Feral Toddler / 2% Tactical Translator

Proving country by country that no good time starts with a salad—except when it does... and Neurodiversity is not reason to stay home!

Last year while roaming through Portugal, my friend Nachi asked why I always have at least 3 drinks in front of me.Obvio...
06/04/2026

Last year while roaming through Portugal, my friend Nachi asked why I always have at least 3 drinks in front of me.

Obviously, I thought he was nuts. That’s just weird.

But he wasn’t wrong. For a while, I kept sending him photos of my daily —until I got bored. (Ladies, how many times do you really wanna tell a guy he’s right? 😉) I’m sure I blew it off the way I always do: “I don’t know. I’m just weird. We don’t ask why.”

Turns out, it’s a total ADHD/AuDHD thing. There’s a whole TikTok genre about it. My personal lineup? Water in the Yeti, caffeine/energy drink, and a fun beverage of choice. On ADHD Island.... ITS NOT WEIRD!!!

I spent a lifetime trying to own my “weird.” Trying to have confidence in my sparkly, unique self—or at least fake it ’til it stuck. Which is why it absolutely threw me when I wandered into my first AuDHD groups on social media.

Honestly? It sparked a bit of an existential crisis. It took me months to shake it. (Now you are seeing why I felt the need to communicate this entire odyssey of madness)

See, I'm ginger... we ALWAYS stand out in a crowd. (Okay, except in Ireland. Too many redheads. I did not love that.) So it was a shock to realize that so much of what I thought was me—my personality, my quirks, my sparkle—turned out to be my two inner neurotypes fighting over who gets to shine and show off.

Symptoms. AuDHD expression.

Not querky at all... see what I did with Erin's Quirks? I crack myself up!!

As it turns out, there’s a whole world of people who are querky and discovering all that I've discovered the past few months.

A whole world of people Just. Like. Me. 🧩✨

Drop your current drink trifecta in the comments. What's your lineup today? 👇

No cure exists for AuDHD…. Burnout is real and debilitating. And full transparency…. It’s really hard to accept as a “d...
05/23/2026

No cure exists for AuDHD…. Burnout is real and debilitating.

And full transparency….

It’s really hard to accept as a “disability” after 50 plus years of powering through and only letting people see the “rock star” success story….

This page is about my life more like VHS’ Behind the Music instead of instead of MTV Cribs. (No hiding my GenX roots)

But recovery happens…. Slowly but surely when you treat yourself correctly.

Baby steps… but one day the exhaustion comes from dancing around the house like nobody’s watching…

One day, the exhaustion is from dancing around the house like nobody’s watching….

🤣 Who needs facts when the placebo effect totally works for me? 🤣
05/02/2026

🤣 Who needs facts when the placebo effect totally works for me? 🤣

Most Epic Word EVER!!! 😂
05/01/2026

Most Epic Word EVER!!! 😂

I wish I could attribute credit to this logo... I love it!! It will be part of my next body art.... Although I may hav...
04/26/2026

I wish I could attribute credit to this logo... I love it!! It will be part of my next body art.... Although I may have to modify it to accomodate Team Erin...

"I somehow don't connect with my emotions or read them properly or don't quite get it" - This is what I've always said a...
04/24/2026

"I somehow don't connect with my emotions or read them properly or don't quite get it" - This is what I've always said about my feelings.

In today itinerary - Team Erin recently discovered there is an official name for this. Alexithymia. I don't know if I'm glad to not be alone in this or sad that others have this problem too.

Either way it's irrelevant.. At 50+, it's not news to me, and I've adapted to it THIS IS why I have to analyze every little thing in my life.. it's not that I want to overthink everything... the feelings are there. They are just physical to me.. and don't come with a label of any sort. Its either pleasure or pain somewhere along the spectrum of things...

So I have to examine recent events, recent interactions, the state of the world, the state of my tribe.... even actual physical pain. Put it into a prompt, and have ErinGPT tell me whats up...

I've gotten really good at it.. but it's a science not an art... More to come....

The struggle bus hits hard some days. Fold the cheese? Like literally? Every one??? Whats next.. do we have to iron t...
04/17/2026

The struggle bus hits hard some days. Fold the cheese? Like literally? Every one??? Whats next.. do we have to iron the lttle fold wrinkles too??

What is this madness.. why can't we just let the cheese be cheesey??

All jokes aside.. the struggle is real. I'm lucky.. .I can usually fake it long enough for the ears to catch up to my brain, or the context to set in and help me out..

Not always... but that's often worse. I am a smart cookie.. so a few minutes later the obvious jumps out at me.. and I realize just how obvious it was, i want to crack up.. only i'm the only one who knows the inside joke!!! (see what I did there?)

Being able to identify the Autism now the way I always knew the toddler... is making it easier to understand me. Its also how crazy good I was at hiding AKA masking away the weird...

we'll save that one for later... Its a long road, a crazy scary mind.. and right now it's only at about 75% operating capacity. The mayhem only gets messier from here!!

There's not one thing that happened that led to Mapping the Mayhem. It evolved the way my life does — a random series of...
04/15/2026

There's not one thing that happened that led to Mapping the Mayhem. It evolved the way my life does — a random series of fortunate and unfortunate events caused by my inability to pay attention, cleaned up by my ability to problem solve quickly and creatively.

One thing I discovered in 2026 is that a ton of traits I thought were uniquely mine are so common they have scientific names. That realization started a domino show of its own..... But that's the story I'll save for another day.

But this feeling of safety in the image — I've always described it as being so comfortable around someone that it's like being alone without being alone. I don't know that everyone understood exactly what I meant, but they faked it well enough.

I understand now at the adult level, it's the ability to be completely unmasked with someone. It's less about tantrums and meltdowns (for me at least), and more about the ability to be silly and goofy. If it's a boyfriend hopefully one who will help me manage myself and prevent some of the mistakes, but with full acceptance and preferably actual enjoyment of the ridiculousness of some of the situations. And not be surprised by some of my out of the blue acts of randomness such as I like to occasionally yell my cat's name as loud as I want to get her attention for no other reason than to do it and get her attention and say hi. 🤣🤣

What?! Did you expect anything different from a Instagram page called Mapping the Mayhem?

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