09/22/2024
The dreaded post...The long-awaited post
I started writing this a year ago, believe it or not (it's a lot harder than it looks to write this post)...I wish there was some juicy story (anything other than the truth, lol), but the truth is, I broke my ankle almost three years ago, the day after I purchased inventory for my business. I have had three surgeries, and the truth is, with my ankle, I just can't do what it takes...
There is the simple readers digest version!
Over the years, I have experienced significant trauma, and this business helped me heal in ways that I'll never be able to explain or express. I was able to watch dozens and dozens of brides live out their dream day! To be a part of that process is something that is like no other.
From a VERY young age, I wanted to be a wife and mother, and to a young girl, that sounded simple enough (LOL). I learned from a very young age loss and grief. I lost my best friend to a terrible accident in elementary school, I lost my role model and idol in middle school, in high school I lost my fiance 10 days before our wedding, and six months later I lost my grandfather (whom my business is named after), four years later I lost my dad, seven months later I lost my son. 💔
Before this business, all I EVER thought about was what was next, every day I woke up, I just waited for a call or text to know what would be next. I had no hobbies I just waited for the next painful, hurtful thing to happen. If I felt happy, I felt like that would initiate something bad. Unheathly much? Y.U.P
When this business opportunity presented itself, it allowed me to feel needed and wanted. It showed me that I am more than just a girl with a lot of trauma. I am loved, I deserve to be happy, I am capable, and I'm pretty good at something.
I often think about that young girl playing house and the dreams she had before life did its thing...I think she would be proud! I am most definitely not a perfect wife, LOL, and not a mom, but I have handled what life has thrown at me the best I can, and I don't think she would ask for more than that.
Now, as I start to grieve the next significant loss in my life, my business. I am grateful for all the relationships/friendships I have built. I am forever grateful to every one of you who trusted me with one of the most important days of your life. Just know you impacted my life more than you will ever know.
I pray for anyone in the grief boat reading this. Just know that it doesn't get easier. You learn to live and co-exist with the pain. It makes you into a different person, and in the process, you lose a lot of people who you thought would love you through your journey, but just know they are trying to navigate life as well. Please know that you are loved, needed, and wanted, and you are doing the best that you can and thats all that matters!
As I am closing this chapter I look forward to the future because this business allowed me to realize every day is a new day and to appreciate all the small things again. ❤️
