03/03/2026
I was thinking today. First time for everything, lol. I’m so hard on myself and sometimes feel like I’ve failed
I’ve always wanted my own business. Since I was 19, I’ve tried: painting, construction cleaning, an errand service… all failed. Dropped out of school twice. Had no clue what to do with my life. Then I had kids, and dreams took a back seat — family comes first.
Fast forward 20 years: I was underappreciated in the corporate world, and that old itch came back. Here’s the truth: trying and not making it isn’t failure. It takes courage to try. And when life knocks you down, getting back up is what counts. I have to remind myself of that more than I’d like to admit.
My fourth business of course is D&J Amusement Pros and it’s been tough. I almost quit after six months. Two and a half years in, I still feel like I should be farther along, and I dwell on the misses. But then I remember the wins: landing my dream account, Mama’s Pizza. I’m in two malls which unless you are a national brand are not easy to get into as most operators know. And I have several other places that are doing well.
The hardest part? Walking into places and pitching. It’s mentally draining, even though I can do it. I thought I’d get over it by now, or that businesses would come to me. Add to that at least five newer mini crane operators and two massive, entrenched companies… yeah, it’s not easy.
But here’s what matters: the struggle is part of it. Every small business owner I follow pours their heart into making a dream happen. And that’s what I’m doing too. I’m still trying. Still building. Still learning.
If you’re grinding, doubting yourself, or feeling stuck — you’re not alone. Maybe I am reminding myself again as well :)