12/27/2025
āDo I need the grace of Godā¦any less now than when I began my recovery?ā
Today marks 8 years in recovery from gambling, and honestlyā¦I really didnāt want to post about it
This year has felt different. Iāve been feeling selfish, like I havenāt gone above and beyond to help others the way I feel like I āshould.ā I donāt feel like Iāve worked as hard for my recovery as I have in other years. Even my meeting attendance has been spotty
But man, Iām here. I made it to 8 YEARS. Crazy. Iām trying not to dismiss that or even take it for granted. The work just looks different
I need to shout out my GA/GC community for really holding me down, and love to my counselors, therapist, and psychiatrist. Even when I havenāt been as consistent in showing up, theyāve supported me, encouraged me, and reminded me what grace and understanding look like. Thank you
When I read todayās entry in the blue book, my higher power reminded me that this journey isnāt a straight A to B. Some days are loud, some are quiet, but everyday is simple: take it a day at a time and donāt gamble. My shame is fighting me, but this counts too š¤
And if youāve gotten this far and youāre in recovery too, especially if youāre in a season like mine, donāt let the guilt talk you out of the next right step. Keep coming back. Keep making good choices
Btw, if youāre struggling with gambling and youāre ready for help, I have a link in the comments to help you find resources. Letās do this, even if itās one minute at a time šŖš¾