08/24/2026
I’m 58 and I’m not afraid to admit:
1. I know a lot of people. I don’t have a lot of friends. My circle is small, and some days I wonder if it should be bigger.
2. I might seem confident on the outside, but it’s just a mask. I overthink and get nervous when I walk into certain rooms. I wonder if I’m smart enough and if I’ll be accepted.
3. I’ve been in events for 33 years, had my own business for 18 of them, and some days I still wonder if I know enough. It took me a long time to start it. I was terrified it would fail, and my “what if” list was a mile long.
4. I put so much pressure on myself to provide for my family that most days I’m working because I have to, not because I want to.
5. If I’m not moving, some part of me decides I’m being lazy. Sitting still feels like failing.
6. During busy event season I eat the same thing every single day. It’s one less thing I have to think about.
7. I started a secret TikTok about midlife, fitness, and menopause because I didn’t want my friends to see it. They still don’t know it exists.
8. I was so nervous to post videos of myself that it took joining a challenge to actually do it. I thought I’d be judged.
9. The first time I gave a speech in public, I was a junior in high school. I froze and ran from the podium. I want to speak about events one day. Some days I still wonder if I’d pass out.
I’m not perfect. I’m getting a little braver, one post at a time.
If you need a safe space to do the same, follow along.