04/03/2022
Love Eat Local started accidentally, just doing what I love and believe in. Looking back to 2014, I had no idea what I was getting myself into. But I worked so hard and slowly built a business that stayed busy, supporting ourselves and the local agriculture community. It was awesome. Cooking was inspiration and fulfilling.
And delicious.
Then Covid.
And that was it. Within a week, I went from working so hard for one thing, to being told that now that’s over and here is this new role to play. It’s as if the universe put up a hand and said, “it’s time to slow down. It’s time for grounding. It’s time to raise babies.”
I was pregnant, raising one baby already, and consumed with anxiety over covid, shifting my business, the state of the world.
S**t was heavy.
I spent a lot of time working on shifting the business, but realized that I didn’t have enough emotional and mental space for that and being a mindful parent. I was miserable trying to do both.
I felt shame and guilt and felt like a failure for not being able to do it all. I need to let that s**t go. In the last two years, I never allowed myself the space to grieve the loss of Love Eat Local, something that brought me so much self-worth and sense of belonging. But it’s never too late. Things happen in their time.
I have been given the opportunity to solely focus on raising two little humans. I’ve had to really come to terms with my feelings around being a stay-at-home mom. That was never the plan.
When I finally decided to take Love Eat Local off the table, AND off the back burner, I immediately felt lighter. I am able to focus on holding emotional space, being fully present and mindful with my family and mainly, myself.
I cannot thank you enough for your loyalty over the years. I had the best time running this company and doing something I love so much. I miss the community it brought, I miss breaking bread with you. Love Eat Local may have run it’s course, but when one door shuts…
For now, I’m going to grow food and humans and rebuild our community after this period of hibernation. Eternally grateful for this experience. ❤️
