27/01/2026
Today has been the hardest day of them all.
Day 8 of being in the hospital with our widdle baby. 😭
I haven’t stepped a foot outside these doors.
Grateful for this man here who has been filling in the gaps absolutely everywhere. ❤️
My faith was really tested today.
Playing the waiting game for every test possible.
My eyes are fat and swollen from crying all day and it doesn’t help I’ve had maybe 6-8 hours sleep since we arrived here 8 days ago.
My milk supply is so limited and I’m pumping for every feed trying to keep up.
All in all we are better off than so many people in here but today I’m sooking hard and not giving a s**t about anyone else. Sorry.
I feel so helpless and responsible. Maybe that’s just the hormones talking today but that’s how I feel.
Maybe if I hadn’t have bleed out they would’ve noticed baby’s breathing earlier. Idk. Again…that’s just how I feel atm asking myself million questions.
I was reminded by one of the nurses here who caught me balling my eyes out (cause there is nowhere to hide in this damn place 🫠) that “yes we are here and we are medical and thats all we do BUT there is something greater than anything we say. Just because we say it doesn’t mean that’s the reality of the situation. You need to keep your faith and I don’t know who you believe in but you need to believe” - well punch me in the throat because that sentence from her had me balling even harder. 😭
Losing sight is so easy when your sleep, sun and pure oxygen deprived and nothing is going to plan but God sending someone who I definitely wouldn’t have thought would say that to remind me when I’m feeling my least is the reminder to keep my eyes focused on GOD and keep giving it all to him because only he can truly heal our blessing. 🙏🏽
Thank you to those who keep praying over our family especially our precious widdle gift. Love and appreciate you all. ❤️
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
Isaiah 41:10 NIV
