12/06/2025
This is one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to write, and I’ve gone back and forth on whether I should even post it at all. But I’ve always believed in the power of community, and despite how horribly vulnerable it feels, I have no choice now but to put this out there.
I’m not okay guys. I need to ask for your help. 😔
If you didn’t already know, two weeks ago on 27th May, I had a heart attack. I had no prior heart disease or health problems, but I have suffered years of extreme, sustained stress and anxiety. I’m only 48, so this was a massive shock.
I woke up that day to severe crushing chest pain, called 999 and was rushed via ambulance to the Royal Stoke hospital cardiac unit where I underwent life saving emergency surgery. A stent was fitted to open the blocked artery, (The left anterior descending apparently- aka the ‘widowmaker’ due to how dangerous it is 😱) and I’m now back at home, heavily medicated and in long term recovery.
This has been so frightening, painful, and life-altering. I’m still trying to process it all, I feel totally traumatised and terrified that it’s going to happen again. I’m completely burnt out and if all this wasn’t enough to be going on with, I’m also in real financial difficulty. Things have been tough for some time but this has tipped me over into absolute crisis.
While I recover, I can’t work. I’m self employed and Jon has had to become my full-time carer. I am exhausted, I can’t sleep, I’m suffering flashbacks, basically I’m an emotional wreck and can’t be left unsupervised. Jon is also waiting for further eye surgery after suffering a detached retina last year where he needed an emergency operation to save his eyesight so between us we just about make one functioning person! 😭
We have had to set up a GoFundMe to help us get through the next few weeks while I focus on healing. It’s taken everything in me to do this, because asking for help in this way brings up so much shame and self judgement. But I’ve realised that I have no choice now, but to put this out there and ask. We can’t do this alone.
If you’re able to contribute, even just a quid, we would be so, so grateful. If you can’t, but you can share the link or send us a kind word, that means the world too.
Here’s the link: https://gofund.me/005d107e
Thank you for reading. Thank you for being here. Thank you in advance for any help you can offer. ❤️
Tuesday 27th. May brought about a devastating blow as Bex had a major heart att… Jon Ward needs your support for Enable Bex to move forward and climb back up.