02/06/2026
Some days I feel super lucky to have the life I do. Today I was paid to go surfing in Cornwall with awesome colleagues. I have so much gratitude for days like this. 😉☀️🔵
It’s not always like this though! 2025 was a s**t show. A year with some great moments but also a huge amount of challenges that left me off kilter.
No fixed home, living out of a van and figuring it out day by day. Mum moving away, Dad being diagnosed with Parkinson’s. Hormones doing things to my mind and body I’d never experienced before. Work uncertainty. And a relationship with someone who love bombed me, retreated, made promises and took them away, and when I was struggling most, judged me instead of showing up.
Needless to say, I wasn’t on my top game.
It’s been 10 years of rebuilding … In 2015 I sat by my mum’s bed for two months not knowing if she’d survive. What followed was years of putting myself back together. PTSD, divorce, career change, toxic relationships, lost confidence, starting again. I know what rock bottom looks like but I also know how to do the work and bounce off it. At no point have I given up and I’m mega proud of myself for that.
2026 started with a thud. But sometimes you need to hit solid ground to remember how strong your legs are.
January I processed. February I reconnected with my friends and with myself. March I started planting seeds. April and May brought new growth, new people, new possibilities. Bring it on June….
I’m training for a paddling expedition in Greenland. Building a portfolio career alongside my work at Surfers Against Sewage. Living close to the sea. Surrounded by people who lift me.
If you’re reading this from a hard place, it’s temporary. I promise. Not because it magically fixes itself, but because you are more resilient than you know right now.
It’s taken me a while to get here, to really know my boundaries and what I deserve. But I’ve never been clearer on what healthy relationships look like.
Emotionally mature people don’t walk away when things get hard. They show up. They take accountability. They do the work on themselves. I have.
And I’m only just getting started. 🌊