10/18/2025
They say that everything we go through whether it’s full of joy or full of pain, shapes us into who we are. Before, I didn’t really understand that. I questioned a lot, held on quietly to things I couldn’t explain. But now… looking back, I get it, by God's grace.
It’s hard to put into words, but lately (which makes me more emo) I’ve been feeling God’s presence so deeply, through the smallest details, and even the most impossible desires of my heart. The kind I never thought would happen. The ones I quietly prayed for, then tried to forget.
And now that they’re slowly unfolding, I find myself holding back tears. Not because everything is perfect but because I know this is Him. Only God could move like this. Only He could bring meaning and hope to everything.
I’m just really, deeply thankful. For His timing. For His grace. For the people He’s placed in my life. And for the reminder that He truly sees us even in the quiet places of our hearts.
I don’t deserve it, but still, He shows up. Faithful always.
Eighteen years ago, I dreamed of taking a course that had something to do with entertaining people. the kind of good, meaningful entertainment that brings joy to others. It was a simple dream, one I quietly held in my heart. But as time passed, that dream faded. Life happened, and I let it go… or at least I thought I did.
But in His sovereignty, God never forgot. He brought it back in a way I never expected.....through hosting and through the profession He blessed me with.
It wasn’t easy. Nothing about the journey was smooth. I had to learn things the hard way. I struggled with doubt, with fear, with hesitation. I dreamed of doing more, of becoming more, but I was held back by so many “what ifs.” For a long time, I thought I was just being too careful. But now, looking back, I thank God for not giving me the courage to explore things that weren’t meant for me.
Because if I did… it probably would have changed the story He was writing.
They say all the waiting has a purpose and it’s true. Because when God finally gives you what you once prayed for, you’ll realize: He gave it when you were ready. When your heart is aligned with His. When your intentions are no longer about chasing success or the world, but about fulfilling a purpose far greater than yourself.
I’m in awe of how He works. How He weaves every delay, every detour, every closed door into something beautiful. I don’t deserve it, but still He is kind. He is faithful. And He never forgets.
All I can really say is: thank You, Lord. For Your perfect timing. For Your grace in my waiting. And for turning a long-forgotten dream into something real, something purposeful, and something that honors You.
And now, every morning when I wake up, my simple prayer is this:
That in everything I do, I may honor Him.
I know I fall short. I’m far from perfect. I still make bad choices, I still make mistakes, and I still have so much to learn.
But I pray that He would help me to walk closely with Him,
to listen when He speaks,
and to be willing, however imperfectly to follow where He leads.
Reflection # Morning coffee
