04/07/2026
In January, I went to .collective.wed, a luxury wedding industry networking event.
And while itās been months since attending, Iāve been sitting with posting about it. Partially because, yes life is busy, but mostly because it did something to me that I wasnāt expecting. Something I had to sit with and reflect on.
It opened up a massive can of insecurity that I didnāt really know I had stored somewhere deep.
About my work.
My location.
My wedding budgets.
My fees & income.
My following (silly).
Even what I was wearing and how I looked. (Yes I went there).
And the truth isā¦ thatās not a feeling I usually struggle with.
Instead of fully enjoying the beautifully curated and organized events, I just wanted to be alone. So the last night, instead of going to the after party, I went to my room - alone. I sat with these feelings allowing them to rush through me instead of brushing them off.
This rush slowed but continued to linger for weeks after.
And what I realized is this: no one is immune to those moments. Not even when youāre experienced, established, or āsuccessfulā on paper.
We always hear, put yourself in rooms with people who are ahead of you. And I still believe that deeply.
But what people donāt talk about is what can come with that. Those rooms can mess with your head a little.
The comparison.
The quiet questioning.
The āam I enough to be here?ā thoughts.
And yetā¦ thatās exactly the room that stretches you.
Because for me, the goal was never to be āthe bestā in the room.
The goal was to become better because I was in it.
The goal was to expand my mind & soul.
The goal was to continue to refine MY version of success.
So if youāve ever felt like this - good!
It means youāre exactly where youāre supposed to be.
Because growth doesnāt always feel like confidence.
Sometimes it feels like discomfort first.
And thatās exactly the point š¤
