26/02/2023
We are expecting a baby 🥰 but it was not an easy road. We have been trying for nearly two years, we went through from highs and hopes, excitement and optimisms to lows, sadness, confusion and pessimism why it doesn't happen for us.
I was in a clinical study for the newest miracle drug for my chronic illness, which really worked. We couldn't get pregnant while we were in a study, so with a heavy heart, we decided to quit the study, even if we knew my health would deteriorate over time. Endless questions about if "we are not thinking to have a baby yet" or "do I see a little belly" hurt my heart so much sometimes. If it was a wishing contest, we would already have a child since long time ago.... After two years, we were tired and sad and gave up the possibility to conceive on our own. Therefore, we started the process with doctors in August, tests, medical appointments to identify what is wrong. It might sounds stupid, but it took me 5 months to get my courage to do a hyphosy test to check if everything is ok on my side.
By December 2022, I got ready for it and did the test. We filled out insemination and IVF papers and scheduled the first appointment for the week of 20 January 2023. We went into the Christmas break with relief, knowing that help is on the way. Just before New Years Eve, I got sick with strange symptoms, fainting and fever and a strange apetite. We had to wait until 4 January to confirm the suspicion, a HUGE miracle happened over Christmas. We cancelled our appointments and are still shocked how this all happened. It took me a long time to accept what the IVF treatment will do to my body, I was afraid if I will have the strength to do it, I was afraid of all the interventions. And somehow, one day, it all changed, and our baby decided now is the time to come naturally, without any medical intervention. 😍
One advice for everyone: don't ask women why they don't have a baby. It's everyone's own business!