14/07/2024
This is the last statement for a while.
Trishula Collectiv is disbanded.
I'm extremely grateful to Stella and our crew for becoming a part of this and taking it to the next level, Trishula 2 would never have been possible without you. I have deleted the previous posts, because they distracted from this truth and continued the cycle of hurt.
If you wish to read more as to why I have personally made this decision, I have given as calm of an explanation as I currently can, below. -Nathan Steel
I'm ending this because:
I wish to continue with a plan to make the collective more sustainable with just an investment in time. I have communicated my ideas to my co-host and it has been made very clear they do not wish to be involved, and that I cannot, morally, act independently.
I do not wish to continue in a label I conceived to enact a particular vision, when my ideas & vision are too heavily scrutinized due to bad expectations, mistrust and assumptions. I admit I have had my place in seeding this, however I have been placing seeds in this project for many years, since before it had a name.
I feel as though my contributions are often overlooked in the face of my mistakes, from more than 1 perspective. All I can do is learn from my mistakes and take accountability, however, I make a lot of mistakes, and I know I have hurt people by relying on them to fix these sometimes, in addition to my extreme responses when I have felt hurt or stressed.
If both of us leading the collective do not wish to continue then it only makes sense to disband it, and free us of the expectations and attachments to this label, so we can continue on our own paths.
Anyone who has spoken to me recently will quickly be able to see that I've been speaking from a place of hurt, with a psychotic mind, and often what I've said has not reflected the truth and is unfairly prejudiced. I understand that many of you have been hurt by this action, I feel it very much, moving on from this brings me great pain, but it also frees everyone to build something new.
When I'm in a more stable state I will reveal my next plans, If there's anyone left who wants to support my ideas, I will very much appreciate it.
Thanks for the support.
