Adam Goldgell, The Cheftidigitator

25/04/2025

The instrument is getting plucked by the galaxy.Situation after situation stimulates the plucking of your brain instrument.You get angry or turned on or whatever.It's painful so you drink/smoke/eat/gamble/watch tv/work / etc etc to dull the instruments pain plucks. In my case I pretend I control the plucks by literally doing magic or controlling the flip of a random card.I fool myself I am in some sort of control.I shake my head at the oh great ones who are smart and pretty and may have a few bucks for the time being THINKING they are plucking their own instrument.I cry for the sick ones who are so busy drinking or whatever to quiet the noise.The revelation is when you can spit out a few notes you like BUT understand you are not in Control of your instrument. This is the scariest thing a human can learn. Your job is to pluck the notes the best you can and let go of trying to control the rest of the orchestra WHICH includes your own brain.The illusion is we are in some kind of control.You may control the peck on the cheek BUT we are living in a dirty dirty out of control o**y of uncontrolled possibility.Adam are you saying we are not in control of our own thoughts ? ...............................Yes that is what I'm saying.The modicum of control we do have is what we do after we are plucked.

29/03/2025

Harvard university museums house a buddha statue I have visited a few times.The object had a real pull on me. It was discovered with x rays that inside the statue were ancient scriptures and smaller artworks.I went back to Boston just to see the items inside this small buddha to be told by a 25 year old "curator" those objects are not on display to the public.While I have found them online eventually, the point they were inside this incredible buddha is not lost on me.All the good stuff All the magic stuff is inside me already. My job is to peel off the layers of bu****it and get to the jewels.Like Michelangelo said when asked how he carved the David.He told the interviewer The David was inside the block of marble already my job is to free him.So get out the chisel and get to work.Your excellence, your love light your spiritual connection is all there already,right under the Tick Tock the Netflix and the Cherry Garcia.

23/03/2025

Have you ever looked at a person and reached a complete conclusion about them without them saying a single word?.Sure you have.Every single day. In poker they call this putting a read on a person. You make a snap decision so you can make a move.The difficult part of this is being able to change your mind mid-stream during an action you are about to take.While most think the instinct of making a snap decision about a person like an FBI profiler is the magic The real super power is the ability to be open minded enough to change your mind and reevaluate.

28/02/2025

I am at a torturous intersection of thought.The more I try to understand things like Quantum entanglement the more I float in the universe of the unexplained.When you tell me things like matter only exists when it's being viewed.I question lines between religious doctrine and science.Are ancient wisdoms just a default because we don't understand and as humans we require answers? OR is there a true interplay linking science and spirituality. This is my daily dance. The only 100% conclusion I have reached about anything is to try to stay open to everything. My drawing is of Schrodinger's cat.This was a thought experiment that Shrodinger and Einstein talked about trying to understand Quantum mechanics. It's more than what I'm saying BUT part of it is Unless you open the box you won't know if the cat is alive or dead.The argument is since you don't know if the cat is alive or dead THE CAT IS ALIVE AND DEAD..That is called superposition.........I call it angst.

22/02/2025

Wanna make stuff great ? Make Art.We will look back at this time period sadly no matter what side of the isle.Create and encourage.Be nice and that’s about it. Everything will work it self out

17/02/2025

The Graham Cracker is an American invention born out of the temperance movement.This was a turn of the century practice of living super simple which would cure all ills. Mr Graham believed his cracker which I really like and eat often would cure drinking alcohol and masterbating.He was half right.I hardly drink.Funniest part of this is I wanted to post this morning how my tastes in food and basically all things have gotten much simpler.The Graham cracker which I happen to have last night and learned this morning after a shallow deep dive was actually born out of an attempt at living simpler and was the FIRST thing I thought about for my a picture before I knew its background.When I started CIA we met the president of the school A certified master chef named Ferniand Metz .He told us every beginning student while composing a plate tries to get as many components on the dish as possible.He says as you learn and your career grows you will start Stripping your plates down and make it as simple as you can.I realize now he was giving me a metaphor for my entire life.......................... K.I.S.S

13/02/2025

Shepard nor sheep.Neither ocean wave or sand.I'm the witness.I am the witness watching eternal unfolding, birth and collapse.I invent it all as none of its real without the witness.This is non duality. A giant dream.An illusion beyond all illusions.This can't be possible that it all boils down to the thinking of a toddler that believes the sun shines and the lights go on and off because he witnesses it.Heres the rub..You can't' prove the contrary.You cannot prove there is an existence without the witness. I dare you.Be the first one in the history of time that is able to show the world that it exists without witnessing it.BTW if this is true I'm just talking to myself.Whos reading this ? No one.

12/02/2025

We are better than this

01/02/2025

Me- laying on an examining table in a hospital gown
Ekg tech- [maybe she's 22 years old ]- I have never shaved another person before [after realizing her leads were not sticking]
ME- [thinking for a second ] Well, do you know how to use the EKG machine properly, forgetting about the shaving part?
EKG tech-Oh ya I know how to use the machine I have given a lot of EKG'S no problem I just never had to shave anyone before.
ME-Do you know how to shave yourself?
EKG Tech -[kinda embarrassed /off guard]............. well ya
ME- okay carry on
She did a fine job eEXCEPT she forgot to take the sticky pads off when she was done.Ever rip adhesive off a patch of hair ? ouch..Maybe since I was her first she wanted it to be extra memorable and didn’t really want me to forget her

30/01/2025

Bob the Florida Cracker hiding at a Quinceanera. Bob The Florida Cracker lives in a big field behind where the nice folks that take care of him all week are having a big party with lots of balloons right in front of him.The Florida Cracker is enjoying the dancing and the music and the smell of a giant fire pit roasting dinner for the part goers.Bob is casually looking around and doesn't see his friend Doris anywhere. Some say it sounded like a very long tortured NOOOOOOOOOOOO but that was impossible. Because Bob is just a cow it definitely had to be a MOO even though Bob just had the realization that pleasant fire pit smell was his friend Doris.

27/01/2025

Oh grand poobahs of understanding. Oh giant thought leaders whose concepts are based on 10 second sound bites and the plucked emotion and fear used by by professional manipulators.Oh mighty indoctrinated zealot of cobweb filled silly dogma .Hey rich guy who temporarily has more zeros in an account than the next guy. Oh firm ass gym rat whose body looks very nice for twenty seconds or so.This message is for all of you.Whatever illusion you need to support to get through your day. I'm cool with it. JUST leave me out of it. I'm busy listening to Tedeschi Trucks and drawing pictures. xxooo

24/01/2025

"Inside the stomach of a whale one million individual stories that all end the same" I like this quote.It levels all playing fields.We dance in a whale and live our best life BUT no matter who you are president or pauper we all get ingested and shat into mush.I think of this when listening to self important blowhards. Or myself when I need personal leveling. This begins the series of the top ten things I saw with my own eyes that inspired awe in little Adam Jason Goldgell 1 to 14 years old. ....... #10 The Blue whale hanging Overhead at the Museum of Natural History.If you were lucky enough to have people that dragged you into NYC for museums you saw the giant whale on the ceiling of the Natural history..I couldn't believe it was so massive AND is it going to fall in my head?AND what can I buy for 3 bucks in the gift shop.

21/01/2025

Love is Love and who cares what you gender u are,I got better thing to worry about.Like what’s for dinner

12/01/2025

Jugglers drop stuff. When it happens they have drop lines designed to say something funny. Many have the "drop" built into the show just to use the line or underline the difficulty of the trick.Trapeze acts do the same thing.They will miss the grab just so when they hit it they get extra applause.Mentalists do it with predictions.Missing a few to build up suspense or difficulty. Whatever you are doing in this life, if you are hitting your mark every time change it up.Make it more interesting.Challenge ideas, skills, relationships.If you nail every trick You got a boring act/life /brain/palette/business/ relationship.May all beings drop sh*t............all the time.

12/01/2025

05/01/2025

Old Lust
Then
New dread
Going round and round
In your broken head
An everlasting circle
Of Samsara
Laying directly
In a brain’s endless squalor
One way out
And
that is through
Just for more dread
Waiting to welcome you

04/01/2025

When a painting grabs you.Its magic.The Ringling is worth an afternoon.Truth is I never regret an afternoon in any museum

31/12/2024

Let 2025 be the year you burn it all to the ground.Protect no concept.As a matter a fact the more you protect the idea the more important you turn it into cinder.Turn it all to ash and then see what won't burn. TRY it again. What's left are the keepers.The concepts, practices and people worth helping you manifest more freedom.When Michelangelo was asked how he created The David he simply said David was always in the stone I just needed to let him out. Once all ideas, concepts, people money, buildings, material possessions, health and all else are eviscerated, what remains [after the terror ensues] is crystal clear freedom.It's a gurgling baby's sleeping cheek It is you free of all *dark passengers. It is your David. Happy New Year