08/05/2025
How do folks 👋
You probably haven't even noticed, but I've been a bit quiet of late.. so I thought it was time to explain.
Basically, my greatest adversary, fondly known by me as bastard wa**er, is back with a vengeance. It has come back in all the places it was & increased in size. Lymph node (where it started) right lung, liver & brain. The biggest increase is sadly in the worst one...the brain. Typical for my luck! It has increased from 3 nodes there to 8 & one of them is 3 times the size of the rest of them 🙄.
There has been much hoohar with my consultant & other departments at the hospital as to what to do with me including a huge c**k up on their part where I got a phonecall to go in for a metal mask fitting (the one I said I wouldn't have done again) before my consultant had told me that the cancer had even come back and increased ffs!! Fuming doesn't even describe it, I'll tell ya!
Anyhoo, the upshot of that is that they have decided my brain is too big & clever (genius level) that neither Derby or Notts has a machine that can currently handle an excellent brain of that size 😉😆. Not really lol, but true about having too much for machines, sooo I now start chemo again tomorrow in the hope it helps all of the cancers to chill their beans again & shrink a little & then I can go have a metal mask fitted to zap my brain.
Roll on hair loss no 5.
I find hair is rather over-rated anyway.
I nearly gave up this time being honest folks & said no more treatment, I've had enough & give in. The last 2 1/2 years have really taken it out of me and been Hellish, but after a lot of soul searching I came to the conclusion to "stop being so soft you daft old bat! You've NEVER given up on a damned thing in your life, so why start now??"
The fight continues, although with a little less energy than I originally had 😊✊️. Game on (again) cancer.
A big thankyou to every one who has kept in touch. If I don't respond to messages, I'm not being rude, eyesight has been affected by meds & I can't see to read a lot of the time.
Much luvs to all, Annie 😘 xx
P.s fuuuuck, that was a long, boring assed message wasn't it? 😆