06/02/2026
I want to take a moment and share something with you all. For the last couple of weeks I have been battling an illness that I cant seem to shake. I know in my younger years it was a lot easier to do that. Its a bug that has been going around and really hit me hard. Now dont worry Im fine but it has had an effect on me that I dont care for. For one Im always preaching about positivity but yesterday on my bike in I was negative and I apologize for that. Kind of makes me a hypocrite when I say one thing and then do just the opposite. I said I wasnt having fun and thats true but a lot of that has to do with what Im battling health wise and then the cold nights at the track just make it miserable. I have always said when something isnt fun anymore you should look to change. This has nothing to do with any race track. Yesterday My plan was to just shut things down for a while and relax. It was that serious. Now I know many of you know people who are going through life changing things in their lives so I know you understand where Im coming from. I dont hate anyone nor do I want to get in to it with anyone. Im just not myself right now and I need to fix that.
Now as I pondered what I was going to do I got a message from a driver who didnt want to talk on Facebook so he private messaged me. I know what some of you are thinking. Why message a video guy? I always think the same thing but this may surprise you but I get a lot of private messages about racing. But this driver explained to me that he had switched classes and was struggling with the new class but was trying hard to learn his car. He said I know Im a field filler and Im ok with that. He was going to a different track and had learned a lot by doing so. My first response to him is that you are not a field filler you are a driver. You see people he is living his dream as a driver that many of us race fans would like to do. He has a passion and love for the sport and I felt bad that he only thought of himself as a field filler. Every driver no matter what class has struggled at the beginning of their driving career. I believe thats a true statement. I told him you have to do what is best for you to learn your car. Each time you go out on a track you try to do better. You try to go faster. You try to stay out of trouble but you are still learning. Only focus on the car in front of you and try to pass them and move on. Listen and learn and one day he will be racing at the front of the pack.
Now why did I share all of this? Well he did more for me than I did for him. I love listening to people and helping where I can and sometimes you all help me in ways you will never imagine. I wasnt the person I wanted to be yesterday . I know I can be better and should be better. I have a passion for this sport and as it changes so should I. I just need to work harder at it. So now you know a little more about whats going on with me. Some days I can be a real dick and on those days I have to learn to stay quiet. I also need to realize I have to slow down a little. That will be the hard part. So if Im not at a track its nothing personal its just going to be me taking care of me.
