21/12/2025
I'll be honest. I'm at this point of my life where I want results—INSTANTLY.
Not walking, but running.
Not learning by step but gunning for outcome.
Then comparing.
Honestly, as a Host, it's not easy.
Others had videos to "show" for it, I had so few.
Because "experience" is something I never HAD to need videos before.
But then finally when I pushed to do it professionally, I'm still at this point where media-wise, I need more.
Where I'm constantly gathering experience, producing the right "proof" that I'm good enough.
It's exhausting 😅.
But now 6 hours later after an event, with feet aching and body tired, I feel proud. Journey might take longer than expected, but I loved it.
Still learning, still growing.
And maybe this is better than being "already very good" but not feeling that this is a new experience—and stopped being curious how to be better.
