20/05/2019
U come home from school one day. u’ve had yet another horrible day. u’re just ready to give up. So u go to ur room, close the door, and take out that
su***de note u’ve written & rewritten over & over & over, u take out those razor blades, & cut for the very last time. U grab that bottle of pills & take them all. Laying down, holding the
letter to ur chest, u close ur eyes for the very last time.
A few hours later, ur lil bro knocks on ur door to come tell u dinners' ready. U don’t answer, so he walks in. All he sees is u laying on ur bed, so he thinks u’re asleep. He tells ur mom this. ur mom goes to ur room to wake u up. She notices something is odd. She grabs the paper in ur
hand & reads it. Sobbing, she tries to wake u up. She’s screaming ur name. Ur bro, so confused, runs to tell Dad that “Mommy is crying & sis won’t wake up.” ur dad runs to ur room. He looks at ur mom crying, holding the letter to her chest, sitting next to ur lifeless body. It hits him, what’s going on, & he screams.
He screams & throws something at the
wall. & then, falling to his knees, he starts to
cry. Ur mom crawls over to him, & they sit there, holding each other, crying.
The next day at school, there’s an announcement. The principal tells everyone about ur su***de. It takes a few seconds for it to sink in, & once it does, everyone goes silent. Everyone blames themselves. Ur teachers think they were too hard on u. Those mean popular girls, they think
of all the things they’ve said to u. That boy that
used to tease u & call you names, he can’t help but hate himself for never telling u how beautiful u really are.
Ur ex boyfriend, the one
that u told everything to, but broke up with u. He can’t handle it. He breaks down & starts crying, & runs out of the school. Ur friends? They’re sobbing too, wondering hw they could never see that anything ws wrong, wishing they could have helped u before it was too late. & ur best friend? She’s in shock. She can’t believe it. She knw what u were going through, but she never thought it would get that bad. Bad enough for u to end it. She can’t cry, she can’t feel anything. She stands up, walks out of the classroom & just sinks to the floor. Shaking, screaming, but no tears coming out.
It’s a few days later, at ur funeral. The whole town came. Everyone knw u, that girl with the bright smile
& bubbly personality. The one that ws always there for them, the shoulder to cry on. Lots of people talk about all the good memories they had with u, there were a lot. Everyone’s crying, ur lil bro still doesn’t knw u killed urself, he’s too young. Ur parents just said u died. It hurts him, a lot. U were his big sis, you were
supposed to always be there for him. Ur best
friend, she stays strong through the entire service,
but as soon as they start lowering ur casket into the ground, she just loses it. She cries & cries & never stop for days.
It’s 2yrs later! Ur teachers all quit their job. Those mean girls have eating disorders now. That boy that used to tease u cuts himself. Ur ex boyfriend doesn’t knw hw to love anymore & just sleeps around with girls. Ur friends all go into depression. Ur best friend? She tried to kill herself. She didn’t succeed like u did, but she tried. Ur bro? He finally found out the truth about ur death. He self harms, he cries at night, he does exactly what u did for yrs leading up to ur su***de. ur parents? Their marriage fell apart. Ur dad became a workaholic to distract himself from ur death. Ur mom got diagnosed with depression & just lays in bed all day.
People care. U may not think so, but they do. Ur choices don’t just effect u. They effect everyone. Don’t end ur life, u have so much to live for. Things can’t get
better if u give up. I’m here for absolutely anyone that needs to talk, no matter who you are. Even if we’ve NEVER talked before, I’m here for u.
Someone's always listening.
