13/07/2026
#马来西亚的骄傲
人谁无错？ Lee Zii Jia 加油！💪💪
大家好，我是李梓嘉。
距离上一次这样认真写一段很长的话，已经过了很久。这篇文字，我想了很久，也挣扎了很久，才决定写出来。因为这一年来，有些事情一直压在我心里，压得我很累，也让我一度快要撑不下去。
过去这些年，在离开国家队之后，我把很多生活和事业上的事情交由身边信任的人协助处理。那时候的我觉得，只要自己能够专心训练和比赛，其他事情有人帮忙分担，是一件值得感恩的事。对很多事，我没有过问太多，因为我一直把重心放在球场上，也一直相信，信任应该是彼此之间最重要的基础。
Hi everyone, Lee Zii Jia here.
It has been a long time since I last sat down to write something this personal. I have thought about this for a long time, and honestly, I struggled a lot before deciding to share it. But after carrying all of this with me for the past year, I feel like I need to finally say it.
Over the past few years, after leaving the national team, I left many parts of my life and career in the hands of people I trusted. At that time, I felt that as long as I could focus on training and competing, having people help me handle the rest was something to be thankful for. I did not question too much, because my focus was always on badminton, and I always believed that trust should be the foundation of any relationship.
可是，随着时间过去，尤其是在我受伤、状态低潮、心理最脆弱的那段时期，我慢慢发现，很多事情已经不再是我原本以为的样子。那段时间的我很焦虑，也很迷茫，身边能真正说心里话的人不多。我开始意识到，自己不只是在面对比赛和伤病，也在面对一种长期累积下来的无力感。
后来，我鼓起勇气表达自己的想法。我只是希望，自己能够重新掌握人生和事业的方向，能够决定谁来帮助我、什么样的环境更适合我，也希望自己可以更单纯地回到“打球”这件事情上。因为对我来说，我真的只是想好好打球，做一个能够享受比赛的人。
But as time passed, especially during the period when I was injured, struggling with my form, and mentally at one of my lowest points, I slowly realised that many things were not the way I thought they were. I was anxious, confused, and honestly very lost.
There were not many people around me that I could really open up to. I started to realise that I was not only dealing with injuries and performance, but also with a sense of helplessness that had built up over a long time.
Later on, I found the courage to speak up about how I felt. What I wanted was actually very simple. I wanted to take back some control over my life and career. I wanted to decide who I have around me, what kind of environment is best for me, and I wanted to go back to something more simple — just playing badminton. Because at the end of the day, that is really all I want. I just want to play, and to enjoy the game again.
但在沟通的过程中，我承受了很大的心理压力。那种压力，不只是意见不合，而是让我开始害怕面对、害怕见面、害怕再一次陷入情绪和关系的拉扯里。老实说，那段时间我真的很痛苦，训练无法专注，生活也像失去了节奏，甚至一度认真想过，是不是干脆退休算了。
我知道，很多决定最后都是我自己做的，所以我不会把一切责任都推给别人。我也知道，我曾经因为自己的信任、软弱和犹豫，伤害过一些真正对我好的人，这一点我一直很自责，也很讨厌那样的自己。
But during that process, I went through a lot of mental and emotional pressure. It was not just about disagreements. It got to a point where I became afraid of facing certain situations, afraid of certain conversations, and afraid of being pulled back into the same emotional struggles again.
To be honest, that period was very painful for me. I could not focus properly in training, my life felt out of rhythm, and there were times when I seriously thought about whether I should just retire.
I know that in the end, many of the decisions were still mine, and I am not trying to put all the blame on anyone else. I also know that because of my own trust, weakness, and hesitation, I may have hurt some people who truly cared about me. That is something I have felt very guilty about, and something I have struggled to forgive myself for.
可是走到今天，我越来越清楚一件事：如果我还想继续打下去，我就必须为自己争取。争取自由，争取决定权，争取一个更适合自己的环境。就算最后失败了，至少那是我自己的选择，我愿意承担。
我不想再把事情说得更难看，也不想让伤害继续扩大。我希望过去的事情能够慢慢放下，也希望未来大家都可以往各自认为正确的方向前进。对现在的我来说，最重要的是把注意力重新放回球场，把自己的生活和状态慢慢调整回来。
But where I am today, one thing has become very clear to me. If I still want to continue, then I have to stand up for myself. I have to fight for my freedom, my right to make decisions, and a better environment for myself. Even if I fail, at least it will be my own choice, and I will take responsibility for it.
I do not want to make things uglier than they already are, and I do not want to create more hurt. I just hope that with time, the past can slowly be let go, and that everyone can move forward in the direction they believe is right for them. For me, the most important thing now is to put my focus back on the court, and slowly get my life and myself back on track.
最后，我想谢谢一直以来支持我的朋友、球迷以及赞助商。谢谢你们没有放弃我。很多时候，连我自己都不喜欢那样的自己，也不明白为什么你们还愿意一次又一次地鼓励我、相信我。是你们让我知道，原来一个人被支持，不只是因为赢球，也可以是因为他还在努力坚持。
未来会怎么样，我不知道；这些事情还会拖多久，我也不知道。但我想让你们知道的是，我不会轻易放弃。无论低潮还有多少，无论还要面对多少质疑和失败，我都会继续坚持下去，直到我真的打不动的那一天。
谢谢你们。
Lastly, I just want to thank my friends, fans, and sponsors for continuing to support me. Thank you for not giving up on me. There were many times when even I did not like the person I had become, and I honestly did not understand why you still chose to encourage me and believe in me again and again. Because of you, I realised that a person is not only worth supporting because of wins, but also because he is still trying his best to keep going.
I do not know what the future will look like, and I do not know how long all of this will take. But I want you to know this — I will not give up easily. No matter how many low moments are still ahead, and no matter how much doubt and failure I may still have to face, I will keep going until the day I truly cannot play anymore.
Thank you.
#李梓嘉 #马来西亚 #羽球
