18/04/2026
The same way you leave a toxic relationship, I needed to leave this app for a while (4 months).
As you might be able to tell from my last few videos, I was hitting rock bottom…
The lead up to my 30s felt like the biggest ego death. Letting go of what I thought my life would have looked like at 30.
As we know, self comparison is the thief of joy.
I wasn’t feeling so energised or joyful and, being totally honest, my mental health was at a real lowwww over the winter.
So yeah, I took some time to focus on energising Emma off social media and building myself back up.
I came off this app as I kept getting triggered by it, feeling not good enough.
Hard to admit, but I tied my worth to a lot of external things — sport, good grades, my body, getting with guys (obviously before shanil ;)) — and in the last few years, my worth was getting tied into views and followers.
It wasn’t feeling healthy for me, so I needed some space.
At first it was hard to be off the app, but I’m surprised how quickly I fell in love with life off it.
What I’ve been up to…
Weekly therapy
Weekly physical healing
Lots of dancing
Revising my Kundance
Living more present with friends and family
After 9 years of trying, I got my ADHD diagnosis — wohooo
I turned 30 had the best party and I’m loving being 30 :)
Fashion styling and @ addiction continues
Visited @ and her new baby in Netherlands
Shanil and I went to Italy 🇮🇹
So much more but that’s probably enough for now ;)
My mindset is shifting to Learning to celebrate what’s in front of me vs chasing what isn’t.
I am feeling more energised and it feels right to come on here with a new energy.
The thing that brought me joy in my darkest times was dancing & connecting with others.
Monday mornings can feel abit mehhh and the last few months been dancing first thing and it’s been a changeover in my mood.
With months of revision of my Kundance I am excited to start weekly dances Monday morning to shake away the mehhh and feel the hell yeahhhh. Bring some more joy fun play and energy to Mondays mornings.
First event Monday 4th May — will keep you updated.
Big love to you all 🤍
